Feel the night air in Perfect darkness babe

I was finally able to sleep. Water + Music are my salvation. Who knew there was something better than alcohol. And, I woke up at 10 without a hangover, that's pretty cool. I give last night a 7/10. To get those last 3 points up I would like to sleep through 1-3AM. My favorite song today is 'Perfect Darkness' by Fink. I looked up the lyrics because it is literally so good at grounding me.

"Keep those brown eyes wide open for a for this moment we own for now.
And everything we gonna do we do it. See the black clouds fall out of fear
Feel it rise up in perfect darkness. Perfect darkness is all I can see.

Deep water stay under.
See it rolling over you head and just roll with it until it's all good yeah.
Deep water a little deeper then you thought feel it going over the edge and just go with it
until it's all good yeah.

Compass points out in all directions.
From this moment we over now.
With everything we do we gonna do it.
And everything we do we're gonna do it."

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