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The Beheaded Goddess

It's March 2020. I've not posted on here since September of last year. Needless to say, after reviewing my last post, 3/4 of that spew actually happened. Maybe I do have patience. As a stubborn and impatient Sagittarius - I find it a little bit difficult to wait for what I want, especially considering my literal daily efforts. Not a day goes by that I don't work on my craft. The same goes for living a spiritual life while balancing day to day business matters. I always give in to the voice in my head that tells me to offer the man on the street food, or to leave a dollar at the toll for the next person. It's really interesting when I behave this way especially on days where I am tested - to say the least. I've learned to walk like I have 1,000 little children behind me, following in my footsteps, learning from me. I have a responsibility, and it's very important to me that I walk the same way that I talk.

Meanwhile I am thinking about posting more here about what I've been working on in the evening hours. I've rediscovered the local library and I must say I absolutely love checking books in and out, lol. The little things in life make me so happy. Ugh a trip to the library with my son and herbal tea, reading while he plays, researching, using my mind, it's the best. I'm reading quite a few different books right now. The one I have the most interest in is The Serpent and the Goddess by Mary Condren. Essentially, Condren highlights the transfer of power int he early 4th & 5th centuries. I literally can't put it down. She writes about how Warrior women were forced out of their power and to succumb to Man. From Battle to cleaning houses for their Kings, submitting to the infamous patriarchy. Sounds familiar.

It's very interesting to live life as an Alpha Female on a soon ending quest for the ultimate Alpha Male. I admit - my life would be easier if I weren't so adamant on finding the right guy - the Ultimate Alpha. I want to remain a Warrior, but I also want a Warrior. Gone are the days of settling for anything less than that. I didn't say I wanted HALF of the Alpha Male qualities, I want the F-U-L-L package. This book is very empowering in finding or regaining your Feminine Power and reassuring that it is okay to be a powerful female in search of or partnered with your counterpart.

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  1. DaleMarch 8, 2020 at 7:42 AM

    Thank you for sharing Ashley! Please share more often! Love it!!!!

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