If Nothing Goes Right, Go Left

Literally I cannot wait. I took the step. With both knees having undergone surgery and a will that I cannot seem to suppress. No matter how much cardio or strength I do, nothing compares to the thrill I feel of playing soccer. After literally just trapping and passing at PT, I felt an urge to hurry up and get back out there. I have nothing left to fear. I ran today, for the first time since 2015. It was frightening but after the first step I just slid right into it. I also had a dream about me sliding into a goal a few months ago. Can't wait to get started! I've found my match!

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