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In space, astronauts cannot cry because there is no gravity and tears can't flow.

Thinking about the term 'Space Cadet,' which I highly desire to be for at least a portion of the day. I found some interesting funny facts to take my mind off my work here. Simplicity is an immaculate art. I literally envy people who have no thoughts. I'm getting there, but I still find myself having a daily struggle where I start with one thought and then I get a little side tracked and the thought about combing my bangs turns into madness. I am getting better though because I am able to identify when the sidetracking happens.

A huge realization I had today in the car was that my most prone time to overthink is when I'm driving. Why? Well first I worry about people looking at me, then I realize that I have to be somewhat alert to pay attention to the road (as much as I overthink it is truly a miracle that I maintain a good driving record) --> see positive thinking there <-- also see sidetracked mind there. But anywho yes when I am driving on the Thruway especially I feel like I have no choice but to think about things. I don't think about my work at all, or what needs to be done around the house, but I think about people, friends, family, etc. I wonder why these innately random thoughts strike when I'm driving on the Thruway.

I just answered my own question. I feel the pressure of having to respond to them, lol. It strikes me when I'm driving. And then in my head it's like "okay have to text back Ally about the thing and then bla bla bla." And it just goes on and on. Okay crisis averted. I know the problem and knowledge protects so I am going to solve it. To avoid over worrying about responding to my friends and family I will _________. A) Get mad and just be a raging bitch for the rest of the day for no apparent reason lol B) Blare death metal so I can tune out the thoughts or C) Control my mind and drive the damn car, if I get sidetracked I can repeat option C - as many times as I need to. Option A is out because I literally have changed my attitude so many times because of this stupid text messaging digital era bullshit (I clearly don't like it). I like to see faces and talk to them, I don't like the ease of a digital communication, unless it's money to my bank account. Option B, I've tried this many times - especially when I'm stressed the most, but all it does for me is make things worse. I think about how angry/sad/unhappy I am and all the things that are piling up against me. I am aware that the latter is clearly a form of fear and worry and rather than letting Option B change my mood/aura/vibe I am going to stick with Option C.

I thoroughly enjoy this.

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