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Healing Crystals, Meditation, Single-Parenthood for February

I don't really have a title for this post. I've been absent for about one month. I truly needed some time to reflect on where I am, who I am, and why I am here. I've been spending a fair amount of time meditating, manifesting, focusing, and understanding. Since my last post my 3 year old son has decided that he no longer needed to sleep at night, so the many up until 4AM nights caught up to me. Finally, he is sleeping through the night again. However, he still enjoys testing me. Fortunately the more I focus on myself the more I am able to match him.

I'm not going to lie to you, being a single working mother head of household one income mom to 2 dogs one of which is sick is very hard. My biggest struggle lately has been not so much as 'finding time' to focus on myself, but changing the way I spend my time. Our morning routine can be daunting if I'm not in a proper mental state. From the moment I wake up I am faced with a series of 'stay calm stay calm stay calm' moments. Feeding my son, my dogs, giving Archer his medication, getting my son dressed, etc. seems to take so long sometimes that I can't believe I'm able to find time to get myself dressed, as well as driving 30 miles back and forth each day to drop my son off at Pre-School.

That has all changed. Using the month of February to Self-Reflect has had a drastic positive impact on my life. First and foremost, I've learned how to change my own thought patterns. I literally have been listening to meditation music that repeats the mantra 'I have all the time in the world.' I really needed to hear that. The mornings have been so peaceful! I've actually been able to sip and enjoy my coffee while it is hot.

I always think that I'm so different because I have to go the extra mile just to find peace. I've felt for most of my life that people don't understand me. I thought wrong. There are other people out there who are like me. I've learned to use the power of thought, with the help of healing stones (Opalite is my favorite), Adventurine, Howlite, Tiger Eye, and a few more to my advantage. I've learned how to be happy again.

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